Maybe She... ( The Hurt Chapter II )

     We speak from time to time, but maybe we shouldn't.....
     It's clear that she loves me, or at least cares for me very deeply. She says she loves me at least, but I can never tell if women are telling me the truth. Maybe it's the trust issues, I've always had a lot of those. Trust issues, love issues, lust issues, all the same. Why should she love me? What have I ever done for her? How is her life better with me around? I personally would think that her life is better without me. But she insists to have me around. And I.... I would never have it any other way.
     We walked blind, side by side during the early years. I was once told, years later, by an unnamed source, that she and I were so perfect for each other. We were meant to be. If only we could see what she could see. She has always confided in me. She's held me in high regards, even if I tell her she shouldn't. I tell her that I'm no better than those other guys in her life, and explain to her that I am nothing more than a villain. She doesn't believe in the heel. She brushes off the notion of my villainous ways. She only sees the good, and more specifically, the good from me to her.
     Maybe she knows something I don't know. Maybe she desires the love of the one who could heal her heart. Maybe, through her trials and tribulations, she's searched for answers, and this has led her back to the one who she believed, WAS the answer. Maybe she believes him to be the healer, and not the heel. This would explain why she sees more good in him than he sees in himself. Sometimes, she just lets him know randomly, that she loves him. Maybe she feels that he needs that. Maybe she can sense that the love that they should have shared, could still be there. Is she the source of their ongoing relationship? Does it live and die through her heart and mind? Maybe she's making an effort....
             But maybe he knows...... 

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