The Journey of Me (The Long Blog)

 What's up everyone? I was watching a YouTube video a little while ago, and it was a video by Joshua Vergara from Android Authority, basically introducing himself. It was a twelve minute video, going over everything about him basically, and why he does what he does, what he likes, etc. I'm not sure why, but it became a very inspirational thing while watching it, and I felt like I wanted to do something similar, but in this specific format. So without further ado, here's The Journey of Me.

    For about six years, from 21 - 27, I was on what I referred to as, "The Quest For the Grammy." This was my dream of making hit music, recording great albums, getting a record deal, and being nominated for a Grammy Award, by the time that I reached the age of 30. I was really passionate about my music and lyricism and felt like this was something that I really wanted to pursue. I felt during that time frame that my lyrics could change the game, and I'd really be a factor in the Rap and Hip Hop genre. Somewhere through the years though, the art of storytelling and simply just writing has become more of my target, than putting words together to rhyme to a rhythm.

    I began writing rhymes and rapping back in 1997, almost as a shortcut to telling those stories I wanted to tell, without putting them in novel form. Writing lyrics is, and has always been easy for me, because I'm a natural storyteller, at least in my own opinion. So I began telling my stories to the beats, and rhyming my words together to get my point across. Let me rewind a little bit. I heard the Art of War by Bone Thugs n Harmony, and was "awakened" by their lyrics and storytelling. This was when I realized that I can tell stories through lyrics. Once this talent was realized, I was all about the music. I wanted to write rhymes, and rap all the time. This would go on for the next thirteen years or so. Somewhere around 2010, the passion for telling those stories lyrically began to fade, and the dream of being a New York Time’s best-seller began to resurface from my childhood.

    In elementary school, all I wanted to do was write stories. I called it writing books back then. I would sit in Mrs. Tillotson’s class at Van Voorhis Elementary, and write my little stories (sometimes, while Mrs. Tillotson was teaching a lesson. Sorry ma’am.). As I moved on to 4th, 5th, and 6th grade, that story writing switched to drawing comics and telling my stories that way. But for some reason, when I got to middle school, I became lazy and didn’t want to pursue that dream anymore. I’m not sure what went wrong, but it may have been the basketball and rapping dreams that took their toll.

    Fast forward to 2012 after I finished my last album, “The Miserable Mind of Marques,” I began to think that it was time to give writing a novel a try again, so it was at that time, that I began writing my first novel, tentatively titled, “A Carolina Love Thing.” I’ve shared the first chapter with a few friends, and they all gave me very strong and positive feedback. I was simply just excited to be writing again, and not only that, but to have people actually enjoy it. The problem is, I’ve hit an area in chapter two, where I don’t like the direction that the story is going, so I’ve stopped writing. I hate being at this place where I don’t know where to go with the story, or how to take it to that next level.

     I just want to write. Writing is my passion, more so even than music. I enjoy telling stories for everyone to read, laugh about, get excited about, etc. The passion of writing and telling stories is what led me to writing lyrics for music. I love writing lyrics as well. The look on people’s face when they hear my words on the song, and how i put them together, is always one of my favorite feelings. Recently, my good friend Tiensha asked me if I had ever considered writing a blog. I told her I used to write on this very blog in 2009, but I quit, because nobody was reading it. She told me that I should start writing again because I have very good ideas and concepts. So if you all are reading this blog, and you enjoy my thoughts and views on things, thank Tiensha for putting the idea in my head to return to this blog. I’m glad that she did, because this gives me yet another platform to share my stories.

    I know a lot of friends who have dreams and goals of being doctors, and teachers, and lawyers, and all kinds of great careers in life. I just want to be a writer, maybe even an author. If me writing rhymes is what it takes to get to that dream, then rhyming in rap and hip hop songs is what I’ll do. But I’ve never had dreams of doing a real job. My current career is as far as a real job dream goes. Outside of advancing up the ranks there, again, I just wanna write. I even have an idea that I wanna do to write some YouTube videos. I just wanna write.

   Thank you all who read this blog and give me encouraging comments. I just wanted to share what drives me, and what keeps me going here with my writing. I believe that everyone should dream big and have goals. Writing, in any way, shape or form that I can get my point across to you, my readers, my audience, my fans, is my dream. You all who are reading these thoughts and opinions are helping me to achieve this dream. So thank you all again. I truly appreciate all of your support. I hope you all have a better understanding of why I write, and what some of my goals are. Again, if you all like what you’re reading, hit the follow button and refer a friend to my blog. Take it easy everyone.